I am a military brat, my father was in a branch of the Coast Guard called the Indian Health Service. As a child, I was privy to amazing ceremonies and experiences because of my father’s career… but as an adult, I feel like I haven’t accomplished much. I work at an adequate job, I have a decent apartment, I am cared for deeply by many people, I am free to pursue any passion that comes my way. By almost every account, I am living a very good life… but I feel like I live in such a small world.
Small world, doesn’t sound so bad.. It’s a ride at Disneyland, IT CAN’T BE BAD! But more and more… compounding exponentially, I want a big world.
I rarely travel, the excuse usually being that my student loan payments get in the way of amassing a decent savings. I know, this is all bullshit. I see it. I hear it. The quiet little voice in the back of my mind never lets me forget that I am running out time to travel without guilt… I don’t have kids, I don’t have a car, I don’t have a mortgage. Thanks to online banking, I can take care of my life from anywhere on the planet with internet service. I need to get out of here.
I want to be the citizen of a big world. A world so vast and large that I cannot fathom ever running out of art museums to peruse, new plants to ogle, bemusing birds, sweets to savor… all the things! Give them to me! Nooow! Alright, not now, but soon… and in manageable chunks. I still have to work occasionally to eat, and you know, pay those damn student loans.
‘I still have so much time,’ I will continue to whisper quietly to myself at work while saving my pennies.
The world is waiting with open arms.
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